Nice work on taking an active step in reaching out for help. Inviting a professional counselor into one's experience can help reach personal goals. You don't have to face complicated or difficult thoughts, emotions, and behaviors alone.
A wayfinder describes a person navigating a particular physical location with skill. May that sense of exploration also describe a person navigating their selfhood. The journey may be done through the recognition of patterns in behavior, personal strengths, and limiting beliefs -- then using those personal landmarks to chart a healthier, more authentic path forward.
To make this journey with an empathic, attuned, experienced fellow traveler is one of the true mysteries of this human life, and becoming more and more rare in a busy, stressful, quick-fix world.